“2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song. If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.”
I never know how to start anything. I’ve always opened my essays with quotes because other people word my thoughts better than I do.
The time right now’s close enough to 2 AM, and even though I’m not writing a song, I’m writing this blog post.. But the rest of the song quote describes my inner feelings better than I could try to explain myself. Perhaps you can relate. Do you ever feel like you want to talk about something, but you don’t want anyone to know about it? Like you want to explain how you feel to the whole world, but you don’t want anyone to find out? You don’t want to keep it bottled up inside, but you don’t want to let it out for one reason or another – you’d be embarrassed, your future could possibly be affected, you’re afraid of getting in some sort of trouble…. Or perhaps I’m the only one who feels like this and I’m crazy. That’s a definite possibility.
Either way, I’m sick of letting things build up inside. Not only has everything been bottled, but I’ve been shaken around too. Hopefully writing down my thoughts one at a time will help me allow everything to fizz out slowly without exploding..
Perhaps I’ll inspire you to tell your own story anonymously on WordPress. Perhaps you’re going through a situation similar to mine. Perhaps “you” don’t even exist – I’m aware of the chance of absolutely no one reading any of this. But I consider this free therapy. (Unless I choose an expensive format for my blog on WordPress. But I won’t. So it’s free.) And that’s good enough for me.
“And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd ‘cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud. And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to.”
(Quotes from: “Breathe (2 AM)” by Anna Nalick)